Saturday, January 30, 2010


BoldMake sure fire hydrants are unburied could save your or your neighbors house.

Friday, January 29, 2010


Not as in feeling well but as in its strep and brochitis and the strep infection is bad. Plus was starting to get dehydrated I am so done with winter and cold and flu season. I got a shot in my bum vicadin to calm the muscle gods down and an antibiotic to fight the strep lets pray it starts working soon.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

still ugh

Still so very sick I have no voice nyquil has been my very best friend. Check back tomorrow

Tuesday, January 26, 2010


I have the flu that Sarah had last week I feel miserable and yucky. I know that I wont die cause that would make me feel so much better. Be back in a couple days.

Monday, January 25, 2010

A long car ride

Me and Ken took Mike down to Carisle Pa yesterday I am up at the top of the state near Erie. Carisle is at the bottom of the state after Harrisburg can I say it was a long freaking trip with a certain brother lighting up a joint yeah lovely but I didnt say anything cause I didnt want to walk home and his dr approves of it whatever.

I am so tired and cant make sense of anything. So i will be back tomorrow back to my usual witty (IMO) self (maybe)

Saturday, January 23, 2010

trip or bust

My trip that I posted a little bit of details about has been postponed. More details later.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Whirlwind life

Mike is home for 4 days life has been non stop as in I miss my pjs. We have went to New York got new cell phones and new cell phone contracts I love my new phone is a rumor 2 almost as addicting as a blackberry.

Hmmm what else oh S has the flu and I am sure everyone in the house will have it and I have a new addiction its coffee and creamer I have never been a coffee person but my mind has been changed.

I am going away on a trip more details in the coming days I cant wait. I have decided that I am staying overnight in Cleveland the night before my flight to Oklahoma.

I am not taking any children a spouse or pets can you say peace and quiet.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Love or Hate (or really obsessed)

I love my contacts I also love my glasses but I have to say I love my contacts more. Well around Christmas time my right eye started bothering me and it was a fight to keep a contact in.

Well my right eye just kept getting worse and worse to where it was hurting and itchy and just miserable and I finally called my eye doc and said I am afraid its the MD acting up and effecting my eyes and I wasnt ready to admit that.

This is why one without a medical degree shouldnt try to practice medicine. He said how long do you wear your contacts before replacing them and I said months at a time I wear them till they rip.

He looked at me and said no no no no no. I have developed an allergy from the build up on the contact the name of this is gpc its a form of conjunctivitis. I will be doing eye drops for a month and not wearing contacts for awhile. This bums me out cause as I said I love my contacts or I am really obsessed with them.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Jan 19 1981

I was 8 on that date and my life changed forever. I remember my mom coming home and telling my brothers as they got out of bed that dad had gone to be with God in heaven.

I remember laying there and not wanting to hear that news I remember how sad I felt but not really understanding how life was going to change and how much I would miss him.

I have to say I would rather deal with grief as an 8 year old then grief as an 37 year old. I still love you Dad.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Saving me

I love love love love and did I mention Love Nickelback they are so hot and sound so very good this surprises my kids they think I am to old to enjoy them.

I have several of there cds the favorite is For all the right reasons there are several good songs on there but right now my favorite is Savin me.

I love the lyrics to it one of the lines is "Heavens gates wont open for me these wings are broken" and wants someone to rescue him. I so understand these lyrics when my mom in law past away I was so angry with God but I was angry at him for answering my prayers yes you read that right I was angry for him answering me.

Then I was angry at myself for being angry at God but as time moves on I am not angry I am not angry with God and I am not angry with myself because someone
saved me as in told me it was okay to be angry with God and myself.

Anger is an emotion and we need to deal with the emotions before we can heal.

My friends save me my question is who saves you when you need saving and have you told them how thankful you are that they are able to save you when you need saving.

Sunday, January 17, 2010


Its fixed no more wondering if I need a flame retardant suit. Thanks to my brother in law Dave (not bubba) and Mikes friend Brian. I owe people dinners now.

Saturday, January 16, 2010


Yesterday I braved my car and went to pick up the auto parts I needed but before I left I noticed a post on facebook from my friend who is having a hard time with one of her sons.

So after I picked up my parts I went to my friends house and said I am here to kidnap you we need chocolate and coffee (that fixes everything). So we headed up to Kings for dessert as we sat there chatting we decided this was nice and we didnt want it to end but our choices were limited so we said hmmmm lets go to a movie we looked at each other and said whats playing.

We talked the waitress into a newspaper and looked and at the same time we said the blind side.

Great movie great actors great story.

We decided that we need to do this once of month if not sooner. I enjoyed myself being away being away from the kids infact I turned off the cell phone.

Its great rescuing friends and not rescuing and being rescued.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Ugh but good or bad I dont know

It has been a day. Good or bad I dont know yet S had an appt at the torture chamber aka orthadonist office and I found my muffler had dropped and if I moved I would run over it and that would not be good. Dr Smith came out and looked and said he would help if I needed it I told him thank you but my brother in law was on his way to help.

Did I mention our car has a tiny little gas leak so bro in law couldnt weld the muffler back cause no one wants to go boom and I like my car so I drove out the mechanics house to see what he could do with the muffler and gas leak.

The gas leak is bigger then what we thought and there is a small or medium chance the exhaust leak could mix with the gas leak and cause a small or medium fire if I should see flames exit the car and call 911.

So tomorrow I have to go buy gas lines and take the car back out to Brians house he will replace the lines then Dave my bro in law (not bubba) will weld the muffler back on.

I am not panicking this is just an inconvience that I am handling without depending on Mike see strong woman.

I wonder if I should buy a fire retardant suit?

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

mental health services suck big donkey toes

Grrrrrrrr I spent most of the morning on the phone trying to convince the intake manager that my daughter does NOT have behavioral problems and she is having some anxiety issues but nothing else. This process is causing me anxiety and stress and I am going to have behavioral problems.

The case manager for this therapist wants the school involved I say no because that is her safety zone where she gets to be a kid and hang out with other kids. I will talk to her councilor at school and see what she recommends.

There is so much to do before she even gets in she has to have an interview and testing I think would have been easier just do the medication but the medication is not what is right parenting is never easy. But mental health should be much easier to access.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

A Long Day

Its been a long day today S had a drs appt over some anxiety issues and it was decided therapy would be a great idea before we put her on anti anxiety meds I was hoping he would say that I am a big believer of less medicine more other things. S is okay with therapy will blog more about this tomorrow.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Wow I took a blog break

Sorry for the silence I told a friend last night when she asked why I wasnt blogging or when i was going to blog again. So here I am blogging I dont know where to begin so much has changed and I have been okay with the change.

I have a drivers license I love my drivers license its so freeing I am planning on taking the kids to Erie to see the Ice dunes that form on Lake Erie and I will take my camera and take pictures they are so pretty.

Mike loves his job and you know I am okay with him being gone I keep telling myself It is what it is and this is good for him and me and the kids I found out I am a strong person.

Christmas was great but also a bittersweet time Mike made it home and we were so busy with not being home we didnt have time to think about the people we lost.

Me and S went over to my friends house for 4 days to spend new years with her I was planning on getting so drunk to forget 2009 but I didnt took a bottle of Cherry Vodka and didnt even drink any of it although we did have a couple wine coolers no one was near drunk.

We gecko sitted S class pet which is a leopard Gecko.

I am planning a trip in Feb it will be nice to get away will be gone for almost two weeks more details to follow.

I look in the mirror and I cant believe all that has changed and is changing and I cant believe I am this woman who is doing things and not depending on other people to help me out. I am a strong person that didnt give herself enough credit.

Mike has helped me see this I love my life and family even with all the bad changes last year brought.