Saturday, November 21, 2009


For the past 3 days I have had migraines I am going to see my doctor Tuesday I dont usually have these types of headaches and for the last 2 days i have slept almost all day and evening.

Mike will be leaving sometime this up coming week. It will be okay and I know I can do this and I know the kids are going to help and be good (well maybe good is an overstatement) but we will survive.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

News update

I have been horrible at blogging the truth is there are lots of things to blog about but I wanted and needed to wrap my little brain about all the things that are going to happen.

1. Mike has a job this is wonderful but he will be on the road for 28 days after 3 days of orientation in Iowa I am not sure how I feel about this I am elated but sad all the same time my friend said imagine actually liking your husband wanting him around.

2. This one surprised me I am letting the school district through our local ambulance service vaccinate the kids with H1N1 I am not opposed to the vaccination I am opposed to the school district act like my doctor but my doctor is not getting the vaccinations.

3. Report cards have been passed out and reviewed S made high honors J did pretty well but seriously does not understand biology and instead of asking for help just let it slip no more of doing that his butt now that marching band is done will be at after school tutoring.

4. Spent 214 dollars to get a cat well and will have to take him back in January to have his teeth clean. Why dont cats eat bones lol.

I think thats all.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

stupid parrallel parking and other thoughts.

It didnt go well today it didnt go so well that they took my permit and made me go get a new one thankfully no test was involved I am beginning to hate the dmv and the stupid stupid stupid parallel parking it sucks big donkey toes.

I wanted to share some thoughts. On my friend Caroline 's blog she was saying she isnt the same person she was when she started blogging.

I am not the same person I was when I married Mike I grew I trusted another and learned to work as a team.

I am not the same person I was when I had Mr.J I am responsible for another life and he was so cute and cuddly. I knew life would be good and I couldnt feel sorry for myself anymore cause it was no longer about me.

I am not the same person when I had Ms.S I now had to cuddly cute children to care for and life was going to get interesting very fast.

I am not the same person I was when I found out I had Md.

I am not the same person I was when my mother in law died I strive to be a better person to give more back to the world instead of taking. I keep telling family members to give to toys for tots in my name or some charity like that.

My life has changed so much and I hope to grow and learn from all the misery that has been so evident this year.

My question to you all is what lessons will you learn or have learned this year and what do you want to happen the rest of the year?

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Stay Tuned

Tomorrow is the big day I am confident I can do this. Stay tuned. Also I am going to have to take Tiggs to the vet he has a toothache. How am I going to get a 35 lb cat in a small kennel.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009


As in the fog has lifted and it is great. I am laughing and smiling and not hurting as much missing mil. I can look back and remember the good times and love that just radiated out of her.

I also realized not only was I mourning her I was mourning a mom and daughter relationship and that made me angry cause my mom is alive but could care less for lack of a better word.

I am letting it go I cant be my moms keeper what choices she makes does not effect me and I am okay with whatever she decides.

As my friend lyn wrote on her blog at one point you have to own something for you to be at peace with it. I was not wanting to own it but it is what it is and we cant change what it is so stop resisting and own. Maybe its the paxil or maybe its the 6 months that has passed or maybe its my friend asking who I was angry at God or mil and I said neither I was angry at the situation and then I realized the situation was what it was and couldnt be changed no time would have healed her.

No time is going to make my mom be a mom so it is what it is and just deal. So I am owning and dealing and just letting it go has helped I feel so much lighter and happier.

Its great to type this thank you all for listening.

Monday, November 9, 2009

I dont feel bad

I love Msn I get my news there and I love the odd stories . I have been teased and taunted for failing my drivers test 2 times I dont mind it has been all in fun and I will show them.

Well the teasing and taunting stops today In South Korea there was a lady who failed her test 949 times she passed the written test on the 950th time. So it pays to keep trying and trying and trying will pay off although I am fairly confident it will not take me 949 times.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

In Rememberance part 2

Chester worked for Alliance College and the Bartlett Apartments until he became employed by his late friend Bob Stine,at Modern Radio. He became well known locally as a knowledgeable and honest electrician and television repairman. As part of his employment he helped develop and start the area's first cable television company.

Chester continued to work for Modern Radio after the death of Mr.Stine and remained with them until his retirement. After retirement as a hobby, he continued to repair televisions and other electronics, the business closed in 1999.

Chester loved to share his life experiences with his friends.His recollection of his life during WWII was filled with intimate details of how people were treated. He loved life's simple pleasures time spent with family and friends, and picnics with his mother.

He also enjoyed time spent with his niece as she was growing up, trolleys,train rides and even a beautiful view. He liked to recall his earl days in Cambridge Springs and how the town was busy with tourists and businesses.

He loved animals,especially cats. He kept company with many cats in his lifetime and treated each one with the same love and care that a person would treat a child.

He had many houseplants and prided himself with his large quantity of Christmas Cactus that bloomed often.

He liked to watch wrestling,old movies,and old sitcoms on the tv. He watched the weather and news constantly to keep up with world events. he had a wonderful sense of humor and enjoyed making people laugh as much as he liked to laugh himself.

He was proceeded in death by his older brother who died at a young age from a head injury, his father and mother, a sister and brother in law Lucyna and Leon Rymaszwski. He is survived by his niece- Izabela and her husband of Texas. his great niece and her children his great nephew and God son. He is also survived by his long time friend Wanda of Cambridge Springs his friends Debbie and Kc and their daughter Becky of Edinboro. and his neighbors me and Mike and our children.

I know he loved cats cause he spent more on cat food then he did on his groceries. Thank you for letting me share this.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

In Rememberance

Chester my neighbor was such a wonderful person and treated everyone like they mattered and he was never to busy to say hi or talk. I thought I would share some of his history.

Chester Ratajewicz

Chester Ratajewicz 85 of 227 Bolard Avenue Cambridge Springs died Friday morning October 30 2009 after a brief illness. He was born to the Lt.Colonel Kladian Ratajewicz and his wife Stanislana on April 24 1924 in Russia. He spent his young childhood with his family and extended family in Russia and in Poland.

After the beginning of WWII he together with his mother,sister and other family members, moved throughout areas of Russia,Poland, and Germany for survival reasons.His mother was able to keep them together and alive throughout the war by moving them with the German front, often living in work camps. As a result of these movements he spoke fluent Polish, Russian, and German.

He had a personal knowledge of how family,friends,acquaintances and those he did not know,met the challenges they encountered to survive in Europe during WWII. His last work station was an electrician in the train yard in Germany.

In 1950 Chester was sponsored by the Polish National Alliance to come to the U.S.
He arrived by boat in New York City on March 3,1950 and after processing immediately traveled by train to Cambridge Springs Pa. He began employment upon his arrival as a furnace tender/electrician at the former Alliance College. After settling inot the community, he gained sponsorship for the remainder of his family- his mother,sister Lucy and her husband Leon Rymaszwski, and a niece to move from Germany to the United States as well.

This is turning into a long blog post I think we will make it two parts. So stay tuned for part 2 tomorrow.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Family drama

I dont know how to blog about this my mom is sick and is refusing to go to the doctor. She wants to die she is only 57 I am tired of talking her out of this. Tonight I told her I am done going to funerals so if she wants to die then fine but I will not be attending her services.

Mean and harsh yes but I am tired of trying to put her back together when I am having a hard time keeping me together she is to be the mom I am not the mom to her just once she needs to think of others.The more I type this the madder I get grrrrrrrrrr.

Tomorrow happy post I hope.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

funerals and driving

I swear if I see another funeral home it will be too soon Chester's funeral was small and great the preacher did a great job without knowing him. I went over to my uncles calling hours but didn't stay long I was tired too and didn't want to hit any deer coming home.

I drove over yes I drove a long distance drive with my brother and it felt great except I almost ran over a state trooper which would have been very bad but in my defense he was in my lane I was blinded with firetruck,tow truck, and ambulance lights and he was dressed in black how about putting some reflector vest or tape or something some where and stay the heck out of the lane that the fire police who was wearing a lime green reflector tape on his helmet and bunker gear directed me to.

A note to Caroline I am going to try and blog for 31 days.

Monday, November 2, 2009

I freaking cant catch a break

I didnt read the morning papers on line this morning like I usually do and we headed to the funeral home to be with Chesters family when we came home I read my one paper on line and noticed my uncle had died. Yes I said died my mom had called and left it on the machine but S never told me.

Two funerals for 2 people that I care about is too much I cant do it I am not doing it. I am so done with 2009 cant we just skip to 2010 tonight when I get back or tomorrow I am going to post Chesters obit he had such an interesting life.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Selfishness and comfort zones

I am not a selfish person but tonight it was pointed out to me I was and my daughter is right I am selfish. I am not being hard on myself I am just facing the truth do I want the newest toy out on the market no?Do I want something from someone that we cant afford no I dont? Would I deny someone food or water or whatever then needed no I wouldnt? So you ask how can you be selfish well here it is. I want my mom in law back I want her to pat my back and tell me Chester (he died Friday morning) is no longer suffering and he is in a better place.

I want to know how much I am loved by a parental figure. I want to know its okay to be out of my comfort zone (lets face it thats been going on most of the year). I want my comfort zone back.

One part of me is glad she is in heaven but the other part of me struggles wanting her here and I want Chester here too.

The strange thing in all of this is I dont feel like this regarding my dad yes he was an awesome guy and a great dad but I dont grieve for him but that has been 20 plus years . Is it the newness in these deaths will I miss them less in 20+ years who knows but for right now I want them back from heaven and now wouldnt be soon enough.

Thank you for listening to me ramble. I need to do a blog about Chester he was quite a character and brought a lot of joy and laughter into lives he touched.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Happiness what is all about?

This is going to be a jumbled mess so many thoughts and emotions have been put into this thought. My friend Caroline at wrote on her blog 7 (I think) ways to be happy and I read it and said yes I can relate to them and understand the reasons behind what they say.

I have related to all of them but as you know I have struggled this year with happiness not that I dont want to be happy but with all the news we have heaped and heaped upon is happiness is hard to find or is it?

We have had several good things happen to us this year Mike graduating school,S making honor roll all year and passing 6th grade and J and the work he has done in the community and band.

But in all these happy events we see someone missing or someones as there has been more then one death and death is so hard to overcome but I am determined to overcome it as I was to a therapist today to see if we would be a fit I told her I am so done with 2009 and she asked why and I told her and she said you dont have to have a News Years Party you can have a good riddence party which is a good idea.

I encourage the happiness to come back I so miss it although its present in little things the big problems overshadow it.

As I continue to find a counselor or therapist that I like and will take my secondary insurance the search continues but know this I will be looking for the happiness out there and lets hope it gets better and better.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Keep plugging along

Well last Saturday didnt go as planned I had hoped to get my drivers license but I ran over a curb dang evil curbs anyway being in my way. Grrrrrrrrr

So what does one do well she cries then gets over it and schedules another test and then this ones a little closer then 6 weeks. My friend Caroline can understand my frustrations but one has to go and try again till she gets it and I swear chocolate chip cookies and a $20 spot wouldnt hurt.

So here is no hitting curbs barrels or cones. Mike has a physical for a D.O.T physical Wednesday and hopefully a job interview after that. This unemployment thing is becoming a pita. That is all for now hope everyone is happy and doing well.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

No good news

Mike had a job interview over the phone and it was so promising they told him he should probably pack and get ready to go to orientation and they would be calling back after they did a backround check and where to pick up his bus ticket.

Well they never called so he called today and they rejected him why did they reject them you may ask. 20 years he was cited for hit and run he let a girl drive on a permit and she hit an ex boyfriends mail box and left the scene of the accident. Its come back to bite him on the behind.

So keep sending us good thoughts that someone out there will want him to drive for them.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009


I have some news but I cant share just yet. Stay tuned Chester is out of the hospital and settled into the nursing home room.

There was a robbery in my moms house this time they know who did it. The person stole my brothers safe with his medicine and guns and the guy used a hatchet to get in this has to end.

That's all for now stay tuned for news coming.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009


Here are some pictures I promised snow, tiggs, peaches.

In other news we have been exposed to Swine flu yaaaaaay not. James teacher had it. And in some good news my neighbor Chester is being sprung from the hospital tomorrow and he is going to a nursing home for the time being I am staying away from him though the last thing he needs is the flu.

Hope yall enjoy the pictures and isnt Tiggs a fat cat lol.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

forgiveness and patience

Its not good news my wonderful sweet old neighbor man Chester has throat cancer we are shocked and saddened all at the same time Cancer is never fair and this just sucks big donkey toes. He is choosing not to fight this he just doesent have the fight left in him.

It snowed the other day and yes Caroline I have pictures but please forgive me for not posting them just yet its been crazy here again. Please be patient with me they will get posted.

Thats all hope everyone is having a good day.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

I've been missing

I have been a bad blogger but I just needed a couple days to process news that we got well not we but Mike I encouraged him to try for this company and we have done everything they asked but it was never good enough he got his blood pressure down he got his blood sugar down but its not good enough they want 6.3 a1c which is hard for a diabetic to achieve. So Mike went to his second choice who told him that they were not hiring students right now.

So plan 3 which isnt really a plan but a hope but I guess its good to have hope. In the other news my 85 year old neighbor was rushed to the hospital Sunday morning for an extreme asthma attack they got him stable and sent him home although they would have liked him to stay.

Monday we did his shopping and he wasnt home we figured he was at the doctor so I called his friend who takes him to his appts. so we put the groceries in our fridge and waited for her or him to call us back and she did they had to rush him back to the hospital for what they thought was another asthma attack.

His friend called back to say they would be keeping him over night and if we could hold onto his groceries that would be helpful so that is what we planned on doing. Well she called later in the evening in tears they found a obstruction in his throat and was rushing him into surgery for a trach so he is in ICU doing well but its just been so scary and so heartbreaking he has no family in this area so we are on cat and mail detail and we will go visit him tomorrow. He is doing well but he is 85 years old.

So I didnt want to whine about life right now its not the end of the world but dang we have had enough bad news to last a lifetime.

And a personal note to Caroline I tried an everything bagel and now I am addicted thank you very much ;)

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Going to do some bragging

Sorry Caroline but I am going to talk about Mikes Ac1 if you dont want to read I understand.

Mike got vampired (his word not mine) yesterday for all those not sure what vampired means it is he had blood drawn and he got the results today our Drs Nurse called us with the results cause we were anxious cause his last Ac1 in May was 9. I guess before I go any further I should explain that Ac1 is a three month blood glucose reading.

Its good news his new reading is 7.3 almost normal for a diabetic the .3 might hurt him a little bit. So all the test results that his company wanted is in normal range and we have worked hard to get there coming up with different meals cutting almost all the pasta out of our diet getting more veggies in. Making whole wheat bread and buying whole grain wheat bread.

No sodas more crystal light and more walking and he is taking cinnamon with his medicine. Yaaaaaay

Monday, October 5, 2009

Lost in a book and dr update.

When I was little I would escape into Laura Ingalls Wilder books and get lost for hours I got lost in Harry Potters world I have visited Stephen Kings world ( hes a little messed up) but a great writer. Nora Roberts and Debbie Macomber's world also I love to read and I have passed that onto the kids who have visited Dr Seuss and Eric Carles world.

One of my favorite books is Where The Wild Things Are and I want to see the movie although I am usually saddened that the movie is nothing like the book but we shall see. I stopped at our local library to pick up some books and was speaking to the libirian she suggested Beverly Lewis and her books so soon I will be lost in the Amish world that I do know a little about and I look forward to entering this world.

The Dr. raised my Paxil by 10 mg and also raised the muscle relaxer mgs and frequency that I take it instead of waiting till I hurt really bad we are going to try and relax the muscles before they start hurting which sounds good to me. Mike is cleared to go to work and should hear tomorrow when he is to call the company that he is going to work for.

His shop choose to keep him laid off and give his spot to someone else which is fine with us and he will be still able to collect unemployment.

Saturday, October 3, 2009


That is my new favorite word blah it says it all I have a drs appt Monday and I am going to ask him to up my Paxil. I seen some lady at walmart that looked just like my mil and the tears started. I am dreading Mike leaving I know its the right thing for him and our family but I dont like it but I am not telling him that cause I dont want him to feel guilty.

I am getting grief from my mom over the telling his shop he isnt staying she thinks we turned down a great offer we didnt as they will be laying off again in a month.

My muscle relaxer isnt working as well as it should be. My dishwasher is falling apart I love my dishwasher cant imagine life without it a tad dramatic yes I know.

I am still waiting for the okay from Highmark blue shield blue cross to okay my and the drs request for a therapist stupid insurance rules.

I need somewhere tropical non rain climate any ideas.

Friday, October 2, 2009

Hmmm and blah

No call from the shop today so we arent sure what that means.

Blah it has rained so much I am considering building an Ark. We are still sick and S is scheduled for her flu shot not H1N1 but seasonal flu our dr isnt giving out H1n1 shots yet.

That is all for now.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Someone has a great big huge sense of humor.

I am not a religous person my brother refers to me as a heathen but whatever. I do believe there is a God I just dont believe that he personally cares for me. But who ever is in charge up there needs to stop picking on us.

The latest scoop here is Mike was called back to work. I hear y'all say but that's great but not really because he would be laid off in a month. Mike said I will come back but I am not staying and the human resource manager said what do you mean your not staying and Mike told her that he has his cdl license and will be driving truck soon. She informed him that she will have to talk to the plant manager I bet they are going to say he refused and pull what is left of his unemployment.

An update also

Mike is feeling better me and S not so much drs appts Monday I see antibiotics in our future my nephew has strep yaaaaaay not.

That is it for now I will blog tomorrow about the call that will come.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

sick and update and some whining

Everyone but J is sick in my house me Mike and S either have a sore throat or a full blown cold Mike is miserable but isnt being miserable to everyone else.

The update and whining kind of go hand and hand so here it goes.

Mikes blood pressure is down the medicine is working which I am glad of and he wants to be working this last 4 months of him being off has really been hard for him he has always worked since the age of 17. I am ready for steady income although we have done pretty good with our reduced income but I am ready to buy pop tarts for the kids again. But what I struggle with is I am so going to miss him when he is on the road I can do it I tell myself to buck up this has to be done for our family.

I am hoping the company that he choose is right that he will be home most weekends. I told him and my friend Lyn that I will sleep with a t shirt of his on one hand this sounds silly but on the other hand it doesnt and will may help me miss him less.

That is all for now I hope every one is warm and enjoying fall leaves where they are changing.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Muscle Gods

I love my life I love what I have taught my children about compassion and acceptance but can I say I want a new body.

I would just like one day that I could do want to do without hurting or afraid to hurt. I have angered the Muscle gods but good I cant even bend over without pain it was so bad I thought about going into the ER and see what they can do for me but between the skelation and tramadal it has settled down. It is cold and wet and windy here and has been for the last couple of days.

Nothing else to report at the moment.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

The day

Sorry to be so late but someone needed some cheering up after she hit a barrel and cone and failed her drivers test. So my wonderful hubby took me out to dinner and over to see a dear friend.

I have rescheduled the drivers test and it will be in late Oct I know what I got flustered and forgot to put it in drive while still in reverse but its not the end of the world.

Friday, September 25, 2009

A Teaser

Stay tuned for a big announcement if I stay fluster free and keep my cool tomorrow.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Updates while I was out of internet

Lots of things have happened with the 2 weeks no internet stupid phone company. My princess turned 13. Mike has his cdl license and is done with school and has a company lined up just waiting for a couple things to come together.

He finished with a 95 percent grade point average I am so proud of him. I am getting ready for drivers test on Saturday we have been parallel parking for ever and I am confident that I can do it enough to pass. If not its not the end of the world will just keep plugging away at it. I drove the interstates 90 and 79 the other day and loved it except when semis passed me but I kept my cool.

I think that is about it.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

An Evil Phone Company!!!

I hate hate hate my phone company Verizon did I mention I hate them. In June my internet contract expired and I agreed to renew it and keep my dsl and they were going to bill me for 70 dollars a month for 2 years for long distance,caller id and all them cool features and dsl well my bills were for 115 a month and I called and complained and was told we will straighten it out just pay the 70 dollars and you will be good.

Well I did that I paid my bill each month on time and they turned off my caller id and long distance saying that I wasn't paying my bills in full I thought okay no big deal I have the cell whatever but I was calling the evil company and told them what was going on and they said dont worry it will all work out this was told to me by a supervisor.

So I got up and my wi fi wasnt working so I figured it was out and didnt worry about it to much so about 5 I called the tech support and they told me that there was no outages and asked me about a light on my modem and I told the guy the dsl light was blinking and he said oh thats not good. The phone company CANCELED MY INTERNET and would not turn it on till the bill was paid so I told them to take the internet and stuff it up there nose. First couple days of no internet was fine no withdraws would look at the laptop and then find something else to take my mind off of it. 3rd day I called my local cable company and they said sorry we cant help you unless you subscribe to cable and I said no thank you I love our directv.

Verizon called me and said we would like to offer you a deal 2 years of dsl fastest speed they offer virus protect and Pc protection for about 40 dollars and they can take it out of my bank account each month. Still fighting on the other bill but at least I am back and I love my internet. I have missed you all and have a couple of blogs to get caught up on.

Monday, September 14, 2009

My Community

We have a Stryker unit in our community and our unit was deployed to Iraq for 9 months but was in Tn for 3 months before they were sent to Iraq. So these guys were away from their families for over a year. They have been coming back in waves starting Saturday they had two buses come in and our local fire departments and police and motorcycle group of Viatanam war veterans greeting them. Sunday they had 10 men come in and they still greeted them no matter how small the group is the community turns out to support the guys.

If you would like to see some of the pictures you can go to to check them out. It is nice to support our troops and welcome them back.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Bad blogger

I have been a bad blogger time I sit down to blog and its bedtime or supper needs done or someone is at the door or Pepper is trying to eat the mail carrier ( I bet they are glad there is a storm door between them and Pepper.) or the kids are threatening to kill each other or someone else. S is dealing with a bully and its not going well I have been in contact with the school principal seems like S went to punch this boys lights out and a teacher stopped her.

I don't agree with what S did but how about doing something about the boy that is bullying her our school district spent money on an anti bullying program how about putting it to use?

Lets see what else is going on Buford my sweet beagle decided to play retrieve the beagle the other night which caused me almost to fall luckily for him I didnt.

Mike has one more week of school left then he is taking a week off before starting work. It is nice to type that he has work (we think) and will be nice to have a steady income coming in. He also applied for his passport today.

Pixie is at doggie boot camp with my brother bubba learning not to jump on people which would be bad for me. That is about the only bad habit that pepper doesnt have.

Well that is all for right now hope everyone is having a good weekend.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009


As the saying goes its one step forward two steps back. Y'all are probably tired of hearing how much I miss my mom in law I know I am tired of typing it. I thought the paxil was helping and it was I was done crying I was starting to heal and be able to go hours without realizing how much I miss her.

Then yesterday happened my father in law asked if he could come out and we said sure anytime and he did and he bought presents. He is starting to part with some things of moms and she had made photo albums of the kids from when I was pregant to they were minutes old after they were cleaned she had the honor of being in the delivery room with me in fact so did my father in law till I realized he was there and kicked him out politely of course.

She took lots of pictures saved every drawing and calendars with milestones on them and this made me cry all over again and realize again how much I miss her. Some days I wonder if my heart will heal I am sure it will. Such a sweet gesture from a great person who loved her family and grandchildren.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009


Well it seems like my husband has a job!!! He accepted a offer today we talked over the weekend debated back and forth and he took the one I voted for yaaaaaay he likes it too. He will be home most weekends and kids can ride in the summer one at a time.

And I wasn't going to say anything cause I don't want to jinx or feel bad if I fail but I have scheduled a drivers test and yes I can somewhat parallel park. The test is two weeks away I am not going to give the date just yet.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Labor Day

I urge everyone to support and donate to Jerry's Kids this labor day weekend its a good cause and donations stay in the local area to help local kids with this disease.

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Guess what I found a camera cord !!

old hair and ms peaches
will post more pictures tomorrow of peaches and pixie

Busy as a bee

The kids are back to school and we slowly are finding a routine I think. Pixie and the cats and dogs are adjusting (I hope) she is a hyper little bugger. But its been so busy around here Mike has 3 pre job hires so we need to make a choice I have put my opinion in and now are making a pro and con list.

A whole new world has opened for me being able to drive and its amazing I still need someone with me but I am building confidence and getting ready to take my test. It seems like the last three days there has been a lot of running and I get home to fix supper and relax for an hour and head to bed and start a new day but there is no more appts in Sept so maybe it will slow down a bit.

Hope everyone enjoys the holiday weekend and be safe.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Why I didnt drive when I was younger and an escapee

Okay today has been an interesting day I rode over to the drs with my brother his appt. He got admitted to the hospital hes fine they just want to do some tests and other stuff. That meant my mom had to bring me home cause I didnt have a licensed driver with me so I couldnt drive.

My mom says to me why dont you drive I said fine and she about drove me nuts I swear either I was going to slow or too fast or something and she had me nervous when I finally parked at my house so I think God or whoever is in charge was saving this from me when I was younger.

On to the escapee Mr Henry escaped the other night and had been missing for 2 days and we were worried cause he doesnt have claws and the other cats that are strays do but Mike saw him run under the house and with some tuna and coaxing Henry is safely back in the house where he can become a spoiled cat again. We had been looking all hours for him hoping he would run into the house.

Tomorrow is a busy day with more driving but it will be with Karen my sis in law.

OH and a sidenote today would have been my mil's 65 birthday I woke up said a little prayer to her called my fil to say thinking about you as it has to be a hard day for you and he said thank you and he said its going to be a hard day for you (talking about me) but it was bearable (credit due to paxil I think).

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Just call my house a zoo

How do we find these animals? Tonight we rescued a pug dog for those keeping count thats 7 cats and 3 dogs. She is almost a year old and needs spayed I also need to learn the word no or be more convincing when I say no.

Oh yeah the 7 cats that live in the house so not thrilled with me or Pixie. Pictures coming as soon as I can remember to look or buy a camera cord 2 trips to walmart and still no cord see no wonder why we keep acquiring animals I forget how many are home to start with.

Thats all for now its 9 17 and I still havent eaten so I am leaving to eat.

Sunday, August 30, 2009


Summer has never really arrived here its been comfortable and a couple days of 80 plus temps with high humidity yesterday and today it has done nothing but rain.

I have sweats on today I am so sore from the rain I am ready for it to dry out. It didnt get above 60 today I have slept on and off all day and the heating pad feels so good on the back.

So I am wishes for dryer weather but probably wont happen for a couple days.

Hope everyone is safe and warm.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

False alarm

Sigh no camera cord I believe I am going to buy one Tuesday. We have torn the computer desk apart looking for it. My theory is Pepper got hungry and ate it.

In other news Mike got a letter in the mail that says please call us you passed our initial pre hire scan and we would love for you to drive for us. I am ready for this ride to be over and the new ride to begin.

I think I can handle him being gone as long as the children cooperate. If not I have ducttape handy

Thursday, August 27, 2009


One Camera cord found pictures coming tomorrow (I promise) of previous hair and no glasses and new hair color.

Also the new furry member Ms. Peaches who is fitting in and acting like she has belonged here along. I would post them tonight but J took my camera to practice how to document pictures for 911 command and the fire dept.

Mike passed all of his tests and got fingerprinted today so just waiting for the federal government to declare him terrorist free cross your fingers and he has to have a passport which I hope is easy but its going to be expensive I am afraid.

Thats it for today

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

An day of driving and an answer to a question

I drove a lot today as soon as I can get the parallel parking down I will be ready to take my road test and be an unchaparoned driver I cant wait. I drove to several spots to do errands in the next town over and I did great I didn't make my sister in law nervous I drove on a busy road and through major construction did fine through the construction and kept up with traffic yaaaaaay some of this involved backing out of parking spaces and I even put gas in the car.

Okay my friend Lynilu at Never Ending Journey posted a question and I thought I would submit my answer here as its long. She asked if we were to pick a new place and career where and what would it be?

As some of you know I was born with a birth defect and its called Muscular Dystrophy. I have always wanted to be a social worker but it just wasnt in the cards as they say. I have always wanted to trade places with a "normal" person for one day. Then I got to thinking about it I have learned some lessons and have taught lessons to living with this blessing as I call it.

I have taught my children to be compassionate

which is something that I would not give up.

I learned that adults are not perfect and will try to change what they cant control (havent decided if this is good or bad).

I learned that gym class can suck major donkey toes till you find the right teacher that takes the time to teach me a different way and (actually passed gym 10,11,12 grade yaaaaay)

But I have taught others to be patient and understanding and its okay for little

kids to ask me why I walk slow or funny that is how they learn.

I dont have a problem promoting Jerrys kids or the MDA and think a lot of people should support there local Mda some equipment is expensive and especially kids need all the support and help living with this.

I learned that I dont have to have my house perfectly cleaned and if I am hurting its okay to sleep most of the day or tell Mike sorry love your cooking tonight. So in essence I learned its okay to take of myself without feeling guilty.

I have learned the Muscle Gods are fickle and easily ticked off.

So I may not be what I wanted to be but I wouldnt trade it for anything and normal somedays is overrated. Would I choose this path again if I could choose who knows I have learned and taught some very important lessons so that has to count for something. Do I have bad days yes but the good days out number the bad days and I am enjoying life (next year best be a little more enjoyable lol) So it sneaks in my head sometimes that I would trade it all in a heartbeat but I dont say that everyday and dont think about it everyday.

I hope this makes sense.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Someone needs a life

As I was sitting here flipping through the guide on the directv and not finding anything I wanted to watch and seeing a listing for Klondike Ice cream bars I thought boy directv needs a better line up I cant take anymore law and order or CSI the sad thing here is I flipped to the ice cream show.

I thought boy I need a life lol. But then I like the quietness of my life so I went back to the thought of Directv needs a better line up and settled on an old cartoon of Yogi the Bear see now we are back to I need a life.

I really need a life after blogging about this lol but again I like the quietness of my life its calmed down and we have a routine with Mike going to school and the kids getting ready to start in 8 days.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Orthodonist visit 6564

Today was an Orthodontist appt for S and he said something that made S very happy she is responding well to treatment so they may come off early that made her so happy. I also found out something else today the bands and chains that are pretty and colorful actually have a purpose other then making them fun.

The chains close gaps between the teeth and the bands that go on the brackets and help place the wire where they need to be.

Then we went to my brother in laws to hang out with my nephews and sister in law me and my sister in law have not been on the best of terms but I promised mom I would try to look out for my nephews and help Karen and what is in the past is in the past. It was a nice visit till Mike came and retrieved us.

I am going back in Wednesday where we will travel to Erie and try to get Mikes birth certificate.

Hope everyone is safe and happy.

Sunday, August 23, 2009


BoldWe have a channel called TCM Turner Classic Movies on our Directv line up. We love it the kids and I have watched Herbie movies, The Apple Dumpling gang and they had a tribute to Mel Blanc and had a whole lot of older cartoons on it was wonderful.

Yesterday no one did anything to much and we watched TCM all day who was having a salute to Sterling Hayden my children commented how it was weird seeing movies in black and white and I was up till almost 2 watching a couple of his movies. I have on the dvr box Gone with the Wind for me and S to watch my mom in law was to come and watch it also as she never seen it but it never worked out so me and S will pop some popcorn and watch Clark Gable say "My dear I dont give a Damn".

Friday, August 21, 2009

School Progress

Mike took his permit test today to be able to start driving semi's he passed that part. He also went to take his hazmat test but couldn't cause he did not have his birth certificate with him after he takes that and passes he then needs to go to the state police barracks to be fingerprinted.

Then they will send the request to the federal government to make sure hes not a terrorist I told him it would be easier to prove he was one good lord.

Started my new medicine today I know that it wont work overnight but I am looking forward to it working.

Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Thursday, August 20, 2009


Rio Diamond, In A Week Or Two Lyrics

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Artist: Diamond Rio
Song: In A Week Or Two
Album: Greatest Hits

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In a week or two
I would have been ready
I would have known what to say
But I missed my chance
When the words "I love you"
Came just a little too late

In a week or two
I was gonna bring you diamonds
In a week or two
A long, long string of pearls and
We would've run down to the river at night
Sailed away, just me and you
In a week or two

A little more time
Was all I needed
But somehow Fall became Spring
But put off today
What you can do tomorrow
Sometimes you don't do a thing

In a week or two
I was gonna bring you diamonds
In a week or two
A long, long string of pearls and
We would've run down to the river at night
Sailed away, just me and you
In a week or two

These words in my heart never had a chance to be heard
But I'm telling you now for all that it's worth

In a week or two
I was gonna bring you diamonds
In a week or two
A long, long string of pearls and
We would've run down to the river at night
Sailed away, just me and you
In a week or two

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Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me,
It could be for anything
I didn't ask for money
Or a mansion in malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you


One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

First thing I'd do, is pray for time to crawl
Then I'd unplug the telephone
And keep the tv off
I'd hold you every second
Say a million I love you's
That's what I'd do. With one more day with you


Leave me wishing still for one more day
Leave me wishing still for one more day

These two songs were on a cd that I had burnt and grabbed for the ride and they said it all. How many of us wish for one more day with a loved one.


I have been feeling really bad lately not in pain just bad crying and all that. Maybe that's why I haven't blogged about it I did mention that I was going to see my doctor about a counseling well I did and not a minute too soon yesterday and today have been awful tears over a toilet paper commercial is getting silly.

On my way to the drs office the tears started over a song that I love its an old song by Diamond Rio called in a week or two I am going to try to post the lyrics later anyways I told him about the tears and he said its time to start some anti depressives so after I answered some questions and asked some questions he is prescribing Paxil. I hope and pray this works and in 2 weeks after I have been on the paxil he will recommend a therapist.

I am so against taking medicine without trying other things I remember that everyone wanted me to start J on ADHD meds and I said no not till we try this and that and finally after we tried and the school tried we said okay maybe its time for medicine

This is hard to admit but I have thought about taking a whole bottle of medicine and that scares me I was telling my friend and my sister in law this and they said its normal its scary when you walk out in the kitchen to get the bottle. I dont like feeling like this I dont like the kids seeing me like this so its time to change and if the medicine will do this then I say bring it on.

He did say with all that has happened this year he would be depressed also which made me feel a tad better.

He also said that with the unemployment so high he has seen a lot of people for depression.

So we shall see

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Energy Audit

I had an energy audit done on my house today. We did fairly well the electric company is going to replace our energy hogging fridge yaaaaaay. We do need to buy more power strips and rearrange somethings so when no one is on the desktop it can be shut off from the wall.

They will also be replacing the doors especially in the kitchen in January we need to replace the dishwasher Sears here I come. They were impressed with our little zoo. it was a productive day but I am ready for this day to end I went to bed around 5 was up around 10 so I am tired but my house is clean.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Busy weekend

This weekend seen me having my hair colored it turned out pretty good although everyone says its orange its not orange. It also seen me do night driving which is tricky in that you need to watch for drunks at bar and taverns deer and the whole dimming and undimming lights. We went to Mikes brother Garys and his wife and I looked for highlights to touch up the gray that I have seen to have acquired and I couldn't find any that I wanted so she talked me into a lighter shade of red that I think that looks great.

I have also decided in this past year and its many curves its thrown I am going to counseling it has hit me that Mike isn't going to be here all the time and other things in the back of my mind that I need to talk to someone with. Now I am praying my insurance will cover it.

I have to say it was weird not blogging these last two days but a great break. Hope everyone is well and had a great weekend.

Friday, August 14, 2009

Health Care thoughts

This issue is very emotional for me and we have great health insurance and have a great doctor it still matters to me to be honest it didn't much matter before May except we did want to be covered through COBRA because we thought our state coverage was not enough.

My mom in law didn't have health insurance after she retired but her doctor (same one we have) worked with her and got her meds through Walmart and seen her 6 months instead of the usual 4 till her medicare kicked in and it still wouldn't be easy for her she kept really good track of her sugar and watched her diet.

In 2000 they stopped at the house and said by the way your dad and I have made decisions Mike your in luck cause your the oldest and are in charge of everything and handed him papers they were their living wills and advanced directives and we want you to abide by our wishes and we became aware of what they wanted.

Although we didn't like what they decided we told them we would do as they wish my mom in law did not want cpr started no heroic measures at all no feeding tubes no tubes at all.

My sister in law stated that she would not obey the wishes when we were talking about this issue at a first aid cpr class we were taking. My mom in law stated that if Karen went against these wishes there would be hell to pay.

She always made us aware of what she wanted as loved ones passed we always joked with her that she was to stubborn to leave us and we needed her so she wasn't
going anywhere.

Fast forward to May when she wasn't feeling well for a couple days and we urged her to go the doctor she said no it would pass. My father in law put his foot down when she was clammy and sweating and took her to the er it wasn't a virus like she thought it was more serious it was pancrisitis and it caused her blood sugar to go way up then her kidneys shut down and it just got worse from there and she passed away a day before mothers day. She was 64 years old and had so many plans and so much life to live.

I implore everyone to talk to your elected officials not start riots not fear the government is out to kill us. Although I do believe medicare should pay for counseling to talk about the decisions before there is a crisis. In the state of Pa if you have a chance of recovery they can ignore your wishes which in this case they did when she coded. And talk to your loved ones about decisions and organ donation it was easy for Mike and his brothers and dad to agree what needed to be done cause they knew what mom wanted. Talk till your blue in the face even if they dont want to hear it it needs to be talked about.

This was a long post and I want to leave you with one more thought.

It was hard watching mom let go and we miss her terribly its heart breaking but its more heart breaking family fighting about what needs to be done or what ones wishes are.

Thursday, August 13, 2009


I got major grocery shopping done there are a few things I forgot but will go back and get them and I walked today another thing accomplished. It was still a busy day there is nothing on my agenda for tomorrow other then to get my house in store for the energy audit on Monday.

Nothing else to report on and plans for the weekend are coming into view and on this list is practice parking.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Running around in circles

It seems like all I get done is coming and going it also seems like I am running around in circles today I had a few errands to do and it turned into an all day thing with stopping at Mcdonalds to pick up lunch for everyone I don't like doing that cause 1. Its expensive and 2 not all that healthy for one but the kids were happy.

I need to get grocery shopping done as there is nothing in the house to make a meal out of which is bad. I feel like there should be 2 of me . I came home to drop off lunch and the kids had not done any of their chores dishwasher hadn't been unloaded or loaded and they snap back cause I wasn't there to supervise. I am trying not to grump at them but come on they are 15 and 12 they should be able to do things without be told several times.

I haven't walked in two days and I miss that between being busy and the humidity summer decides to show up two weeks before school. So how does one make the time for ones self and trying to get everything else done that needs done?

I am tired its good to be tired and it keeps me out of trouble and thinking about things that I shouldn't think about. I did drive today scared my brother to death took a curve a little too fast and he gets mad if I drive above 50 but one needs to learn to travel with traffic.

I have people coming Monday to do an energy audit am I ready no I need to get S on cleaning her room I am afraid to go in cause I believe there is no floor in there.

I need to practice being more zen like and maybe life will slow down. One can hope right?

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

I swear I have the most stupidest insurance company in the world

On July 30th when I became a somewhat licensed driver in pa (meaning I can drive with a licensed driver) I called our insurance company and asked them to add me to Mikes policy and we upped from liability to comprehensive and collision just in case someone had an accident we should have had it anyways.

They told me congratulations and happy driving and that they would order my drivers history just to make sure there was nothing on there. I told them there would be nothing on there cause I had never driven but I understand that they cant take my word for it. So as y'all know I drove happily.

Then they called and said Mrs.Rice your coming back as invalid and we would like to order another one but continue to drive cause your covered. Three days later they called back to verify numbers and I assured them that my permit is valid and my numbers on my state I.D and the permit numbers match so it was not a mistake on the dmv's part.

That's where it starts to get interesting they told me that I could have coverage but they would have to charge me 35 dollars more for an invalid drivers license charge I said wait a minute your not allowed to drive on an invalid drivers license so why would you have a fee for it and she couldn't answer so I haven't been doing much driving.

So today I called the dmv and they assured me I was valid and he would fax something to the insurance company stating this. I said fine he did and the stupid insurance company calls me and tells me maam your allowed to drive its just that we require you to have your drivers license in 30 days so by Aug 30 th I would have to have it or be dropped.

So I called them all angry and doing my most zen and polite voice I said you guys told me that if I drive Mikes car then its not covered so I haven't been driving. I kind of demanded an extension and she said let me talk to my supervisor and they extended so I am allowed to drive again and I will have my license by the middle of Sept.


Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm picture me in a mediation state all zen like.

Monday, August 10, 2009

A new day

Yesterday we went for a second walk and I didn't do the whole mile so I did half a mile and sat and watched the water for a while and I just had a calm feeling come over me I don't know that I ever will be okay with mom leaving but I suspect over time it will get easier and when its hard I think I will go to the dam and sit and just watch the water.

Mike started classes today and he is tired but he thinks he is going to enjoy this new direction in his life and my children are still alive so I think it was a good day all in all.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

3 Months

Today is 3 month anniversary of moms passing as I look back on the 3 months I see good and bad. I remember blogging days after and explaining we were numb I can say today I miss numb. But I know that one has to hurt to heal.

I know healing doesn't come overnight and I know that this emptiness in my heart will be there for the rest of my time she cant be replaced and I don't want her replaced.

Yesterday on our drive to our family reunion there was a song that was played over the radio and this song was a huge hit in the 80s and its called You Don't Know What You Have Till Its Gone and the group is Cinderella and I know that they were signing about heartache and the loss of a relationship I turned to my cousin and said boy isn't this the truth you don't know what you have till its gone meaning a relationship or the loss of a loved one.

In another 3 months I hope to look back at this and say I miss her less. I hope to say my heart is healed a little more I hope to say I can understand why God choose to take her to heaven my brother in law and I were talking about that the other day and he said the way that he looks at it is They needed someone of Moms character to brighten the place up. My mom tells me not question it just accept it.
So I guess another goal I should have is to accept the decision that she went to heaven.

I want to state clearly that I understand the decision that the boys and Dad made to end life support I supported that decision.

Okay that is all I have to say it was hard typing this post my thoughts were all over the place. Thanks for reading

Saturday, August 8, 2009

The past

This morning I found myself in a Walmart in a city that I lived and went to school(
a little history )after my mom told me I couldn't live at home anymore and when she told me this lovely news I was dating a guy who had two little children and was going through a divorce not the best decision now that I look back on it but I say you have to experience the bad love to appreciate the good love.

Well this guy and I were engaged but i wasn't sure about that decision so I kept delaying and then one night he smacked me it wasn't hard but it was enough to open my eyes and I called the engagement off and broke up with him. Although my heart hurt I knew this was the best. One of my biggest pet peeves is domestic violence.

This morning as I said in the beginning I found myself in Walmart getting supplies for our family reunion in my little cart I heard a voice that said hello stranger and I knew without looking who it was. He said long time no see I said yep almost 14 years of long time no see. He asked how many children I had and if I was still married ( did I mention my wedding ring set is unwearable at the moment) I answered 2 and yes still married to the same guy he asked how long I said 17 years. He asked did Mike treat me well and I said yes he did.

I asked about him and he said that he has a girlfriend they have been together for about 12 years and he said something to me that amazed me he said he was sorry for the way he acted and that he made a big mistake he doesn't go a day without realizing what a mistake he made and said I have never hit another woman.

I never for a minute regretted marrying Mike I never regretted breaking off the previous engagement if I could go back and tell myself something it would be to be aware of this guy as I look back on it it was not a good relationship and it was not a relationship that I should have been in.

He asked if I had a good life and I answered besides the few bumps we have had this year yes I love my life even the bumps has taught me lessons. It was nice talking with him and he did ask if me and Mike would join him and his girlfriend for dinner sometime and I said no not really I want the past to stay in the past I am not the same person I was back then and truthfully he is not someone that I see myself being friends with. But its nice to know that I opened his eyes and its nice to know that I stopped someone from abusing women by stopping it from happening to me.

Hope everyone is enjoying the weekend

Friday, August 7, 2009

I was bad

I have been bad today I didn't walk I didn't put in my contacts I did shower (that in its self is a blessing). Mike asked if I was feeling okay and I said yeah I just didn't want to do anything so my bum has been on the loveseat most of the day surfing and just vegging out.

I did cook supper and I made a discovery today I don't like my glasses as much as I thought I did. I walked up to the school to pick up J's fundraising tickets and signed the form I would be responsible for them they are for country fair stores if anyone is interested let me know.

See what else is going on Mike did walk yaaay for him. Thats about it was a good day and I don't feel bad.

Tomorrow will be busy.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Pay off (I think)

Monday my wonderful husband is to start classes Monday August 10th. He is excited and nervous at the same time I am excited for him he has always wanted to drive truck but gave it up to help me with the kids when they were young although he will miss us and we will miss him its time he gets to do something that he has always wanted to do and this I think will be good for our family.

I walked 2 miles today Mike did 4 I am so proud of him for taking this seriously and his sugar is going down he has been drinking tons of water with sugar free mixes we have always used splenda in tea but we think something in the tea was causing his sugar to be high. While I always try to eat healthy we have made more changes such as wheat bread and when I make bread I will be making it with wheat germ or wheat flour if I can find it. I make my bread without sugar if anyone is interested in how this works leave a comment or email me at or

I finally tracked down the lady at career links then I had a talk with Ms S about her message taking skills. J has had band camp this week and is just worn out he has happy tonight when he got the message that fire school had been canceled tonight.

The kids start school Sept 2nd I cant think of anything else going on tomorrow seems like its going to be a calm day nothing on the schedule except walking.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

I want off this crazy ride

Between the learning how to drive, parallel parking was attempted today and we still need to work on this. The various loops that we are jumping through for Mikes school and my family reunion coming up on Saturday ,walking I am not sure if we are coming or going could someone please help me or shoot me your choice.

We keep playing phone tag with various school officials, career links, drs offices. and my cousin April my co planner on the reunion, my mom who thinks I am avoiding her and my sister in law Karen and Mikes dad. If my lovely daughter tells me one more time that Career links called and I or Mike need to call them back then has no clue who to ask for I think I will scream then ban her from answering the phone at least then they will have to speak to the answering machine and hopefully will leave their name and extension so I don't spend a hour tracking down people.

A note to weatherization people if you call and set up a time to do an energy audit and I cancel appts to make you fit and you call back and cancel and ask if this date would be better I may hurt yall. Twice they have done that.

On top of all that I need to make sure J turned in fundraising stuff for marching band and dog detail cause of band camp this week. Lets see what else I think thats about it see you would want off this crazy ride also.

I miss blogging and reading other blogs. I will get caught up soon ( I hope)

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Why I didnt blog yesterday

Yesterday started out harmlessly enough got up and showered did the contact thing and did some errands then it was time for Mikes drs appt which didnt go quite like we expected his sugars are too high if he doesnt get them down then it will be insulin and he cant drive.

The dr said you need to exercise to bring the sugar down and that is what we did but let me back up a little I drove yesterday from Conneaut Lake home doing 45 to 60 with Mike saying slow down he told my brother he sees speeding tickets in my future. Can I just state its hard not to go fast with the wind blowing in your hair and great music on the radio lol.

Okay back to the excerise portion of the blog we came home and grabbed Buford and walked a local dam someday I will remember to take the camera with me and take picutres it is absolutly breathtaking view. Mike did the brisk 2 mile walk thing me and Buford did the Mile thing at our own pace less me and less Buford would be great the three months sitting on the loveseat did not help my waistline at all.

It felt great then we went to Mikes brothers for a late supper. Which was fairly healthy and grilled. I felt great after the walk the foot didnt hurt I got up this morning and my hip was bothering me but me and S and Buford walked the mile again and Mike and Pepper did the 2 mile walk I told Mike he did resistance training with Pepper wanting to do other things.

I did not drive today for one thing I took tramadol and I dont dare drive with that and Second I hurt kind of and I dont want to drive when I dont feel well I figure I will feel better after I get used to walking again can I just say it felt great to get out and moving.

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Driving take 2

Today I drove our car which is a caviliar with Mike I figured he would have me a nervous wreck time we got home I drove about 10 miles with traffic I did fine this time I also went a little faster.

Mike was calm and the only thing he said to me was to keep my speed up need to move with traffic but not go over the speed limit. The only time he paniced is when I almost took out my brothers car and the garage hey I know that we need to work on parking I will admit that.

Onto Ms Peaches (still have not found my camera cord) S has a pair of slippers that are white grey and black and Peaches suckles and kneads them it is so funny we call the one not the momma the other cats are starting to interact with her and I think everyone will be just fine. We were offered three more kittens that the family cant keep and the shelters are full we said sorry but no. As much as I would love to we just cant I cant shell out another 500 dollars to get animals spayed or neutred. Some months its hard enough just to keep a roof over everyones head furry and otherwise.

Tomorrows post Social Security and Unemployment mistakes it should be interesting with a lot of 4 letter words that start with the letter f and I dont mean fire.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Brothers and A Birthday dinner

Today is my moms birthday and since we were busy on moms day dealing with a loss I didnt get to do much for her on moms day so I said hey mom lets go to erie your favorite restraunt. We were suppose to go Friday but she was busy.

I cant go tomorrow have other things on my list so at 5 ( a little late) we headed out to my moms and I didnt drive cause my other brother Ken was upset that I wasnt there yet so bubba the other brother drove super fast with Ken calling and yelling I got to the point that I said to Ken quit yelling at me or you will find yourself in next week a couple days early dont take the attitude from my husband not going to take it from you.

He calmed down a little and got up there and I was prepared to pay for mine and moms but Ken paid for them all. Maybe he felt guilty for his attitude earlier.

Tomorrow I hope to get to drive more I enjoyed yesterdays little adventure I did not drive in Erie or on the interstate nor home not ready for that adventure yet.

Hope everyone is enjoying the weekend

Friday, July 31, 2009


Well my brother said lets go out by moms and practice driving I said okay I was scared to death to drive out there cause there are some steep hills that starts another hill with amish buggies hidden down in the hills.

Well I survived so did Bubba and his car no amish buggies were harmed and I conqured a busy road and crossed over to get to a restraunt. Bubba smoked a lot and tried to yell and I told him that making me nervous was not a good idea. I did have a little bit of trouble backing out of my moms driveway but no one is perfect till they have practice.

Its not overwhelming at all the manual makes it seem that way but its not hope everyone is going to have a great weekend

Thursday, July 30, 2009

An interesting day

It has been a very interesting day. First I passed my permit test missed one question and I didnt really miss it it was worded funny but I did fail my eye exam and I hear yall saying how did you do that with all the contact drama that I blogged about last month. Well let me explain.

Eye vision chart high (made for tall people) me not so tall and a guy that couldnt adjust it for short people so he failed me I said no problem and went to my eye dr who signed my form and I was on my merry way.

Mikes cell phone had gone off for about the millionth time and I thought it was the boy calling again to ask what he could have to eat but it wasnt it was Career link people calling to tell him in record time our state capital approved his training and if he can get clearence from the doctor he is set to start school Aug 10th.

So its been a very good day except for some reason my laptop is throwing a fit. I hope it gets over it soon.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

THE INN IS FULL!!!!!!!!!!!! and thats my story

Tonight sitting here reading my drivers manual (tomorrow is the test). There was a stray that eats out back meowing at the front door wanting in. NOOOOOO THE INN IS FULL!!!!!!!!!! no more kitties no more doggies no more four legged animals (till the next kitten).

I would love to start a non profit spay and neuter program but that would be expensive and expensive is not good right now.

In other news Mike is bummed he is a diabetic and he has not been careful about keeping tabs on his count well he has to go see his family dr Monday cause the physician asstistant wouldnt pass him cause of sugar in is urine. So please cross your fingers this is just a stone in the path and can be easily removed.

I will post my results of permit test tomorrow its multiple choice so I should be okay I joked with Caroline earlier if they would mind if I took my manual in with me she said no that I probably couldnt do that. OH well so I need to know it.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Number 23 why I love my husband

My mom thinks Mike is mean and I shouldnt have married him but this is based on the fact that he tries to protect me from her and some of her actions.

Today we ran up to walmart to do our neighbors shopping as tomorrow will be busy we were waiting in the express line and it was kind of congested and there was 2 black women at the cashiers and having trouble with their bank card. This guy in front of us turned to Mike and said I should have known they were holding up the line.

Mike asked is it cause they are black or because they are women and the guy replied cause they were black and Mike said to this guy I should tell you my sister in law is black and I dont care to hear your opinions. I asked him if he would have agreed with the guy if he had said because of women Mike said he would have said the same thing.

We got to talking about this in the car and in front of S and Mike said no one should put down race,sex,color, sexual prefence. Yaaaaaaaay kids are learning by example.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Police issue drug charges to man who asks for directions

Police issue drug charges to man who asks for directions This should be filed under dumb criminals good Lord. This guy was just plain stupid or maybe in N.Y. the police dont care about pot but here they do which is good.

More tomorrow

Sunday, July 26, 2009

A headache

For the past two days my head has really hurt either from Pepper and her obsessive barking or my daughter arguing with me and her dad over every little thing. She is having her friend sleep over tonight ( her dads idea) and Pepper has decided between the thunder and the girls laughing she needs to alert us. She needs barkers anoymous.

I will be back tomorrow and update you on Peppers health or S's health and her friends if they dont settle down.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Half of A Political Post half of an annoying day post

As I stated before Mike and I are registered republicans I have always considered myself a moderate republican (please forgive me). I voted for GWB hoping he would be like his dad he wasnt I voted for him a second time cause I believed what we were doing in Iraq needed done till the whole MWD discussion came out and it was proven unfounded sigh.

I never did care for Dick nor was I surprised he shot someone accidently hunting. After the second election and more and more things came out I was sad that I had voted the way I had but whats a gal to do. I always listen to both candidates sides and this time listened very carefully to what everyone was saying and Me and Mike both stated early on who we were voting for and he won and hopefully our country will get back on track.

My mom says that she cant stand the current adminstration well mom I say you need to listen more and quit judging him on his color. I have told her if it wasnt for him we would be up the creek with no paddle as Mikes unemployment is about to run out in a couple weeks the current president has made it possible to extend his unemployment so we wont be living on the street just yet and something else that has been talked about a lot here is Mikes training the school that he will attend will be paid for and that is good cause I do know that we cant afford 7400 tution.

Then there was something in our local paper at that D*ick Ch*eny had wanted his boss to send military into Buffalo Ny to arrest 6 terroists.
known as the Lackawagna 6 this is a big no no according to the U.S Consitution you know the thing that they pledged to serve and protect not walk on or around.
that scares me that this almost happened in their terms of terrorists one has to wonder if you bad mouthed them would you be seen as a terrorist something to think about.

Okay on to the annoying day part when one is trying to listen to ones child play an 800 dollar trumpet that ones parents shelled out for it would be nice if the lady would get off her cell phone so people could hear insteead of trying to yell over the band I know this ladys plans for the night instead of hearing my son play zippee do da day on the above mentioned trumpet.

As we (me my brother and Miss S) was going to our local firemans carnival either we sideswept them or they side swept us (no major damage, nor anyone hurt) the womans son gets out and starts yelling at my brother that hes going to pay for a new vechicle and if he watched what he was doing and all this. I told Bubba dont get out this guy is mad and someone called the police so we didnt go to the carnival cause bubba was nervous and I was sore from standing there talking with the police who were very nice and told the guy to calm down that there wasnt that much damage done just a scratch.

Hope everyone is having a great day and I would love to think what yall think about the first part of the blog.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Updates on several fronts

Well my cats are calming down and there has been more sniffing and less hissing today which is a good sign. Our male kitty Boots who is neutred is absoultly in love with Peaches and will play with her and sleep with her one down 5 more to go.

Mike submitted his training request to Harrisburg today and it will be approved upon passage of a drug test and physical which we are not at all worried about. As I stated before neither of us do drugs. So everything is set for him to start school on Aug 10th lets pray and cross our fingers that his shop doesnt call him back before then.

Peaches is laying on my chest sleeping and has already worked her way into our hearts. Its a good thing we like cats. As I look around at the 7 cats already living here all of them are rescues this makes me happy and sad all at the same time I am happy we were able to rescue them and give them a loving home but it makes me sad that someone was irresponsible with their pets. that is all I have for today

Thursday, July 23, 2009


Peaches is our new family member the other cats are packing their treats and toys as we speak they walk into the living room smell her and hiss at her. I am sure everyone will adjust or at least I hope.

She will be spayed when she is a bit older we think she is about 4 weeks old she isnt able to eat hard food yet although she can chow down on the wet food and she loves pounce treats and she knows what to do with a litter box yaaaaay.

We were sitting in the living room watching tv and Mike started laughing and told me to look its a black male cat named lover boy wanting in meowing and pawing at the front door. Mike went out and fed him. I am going to construct a sign that says THE INN IS FULL free food out back but I dont want to see your cute face.

People need to be responsible for their pets if they dont want them instead of dumping them and hoping it all turns out okay. Take them to a shelter the pets that you do care for get them spayed or neutred.

Thats all I have for today. Hope everyone is safe and happy

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Parenting teens continued cause blogger is being a pita

Aeryn and Mikeys parents think its okay for them to chew tobacco first its disgusting and unhealthy and to mention illegal. Law is 18 years old.

We have sat J down and told him that if we catch him with any tobacco products he will not get his drivers license until a year from when he turns 16. From what I understand of the drivers manual and I have been reading you have to be in fairly good health to drive and he wont be also if he is caught on school property with tobacco we are not paying any fines. And their will be punishment severe punishment as I told him I brought you into this world I can and will take you out of it.

I cant tell Aeryn and Mikeys parents I think what they are doing is wrong cause its not my place to question their parental decisions. Its a poor one and I have talked to my nephews about this.

But we can control Js decisions and he wont be doing that.

In other news we have a new family member as much as I didnt want to I just couldnt leave her outside.

Someone dumped a not even 6 week kitten in our yard. She is a female who will be spayed when its time. Its storming out. As full as our house is with animals I suppose their is room for one more. I really need to find that sign that says we welcome all stray cats. Her name is Peaches and she has a yellow stripe down her face will try to get a picture of her up soon. I wonder if the county assistance office will take in account of the extra mouth to feed.

Parenting teens

We are kind of strict with our children we expect them to do well in school to do their chores and take care of the animals that they talked us into and to take responisbility for their actions and words.

We very carefully guard who their friends are as my mom says they lead a sheltered life. We dont drink alochol on a regular basis nor do we do drugs cause we believe to lead by example. Although Mike does smoke and has been working very hard to change that.

I get from S well my friends mom lets her date and wear makeup and I say well I am not your friends mom usually she storms off to her room and slams her door and throws her little princess attitude and I dont care as long as I dont have to hear it or see it its fine.

I have two nephews how are a little older then J Aeryn is two months older and Mikey is 1 year older and they are step brothers and I love them dearly Aeryn is our actual nephew for the record.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Health Care

I dont like living in a world of what ifs. What if Mike doesnt like driving trucks, what if I dont like him being gone all the time. If you live in a world of what ifs your afraid to try because of the what if theory. But I am stuck in the world of what if. Let me explain.

I admit I am a news junkie I like to be informed I like to know what is going on nationally and locally and state wise and in the news right now is health care and the fact that millions of people are without health care and people especially republicans (which I am but am giving it up for lent) dont see what the problem is with that fact. I have a big problem with it as a family we are fornute that we have health coverage but I remember a time that we had to cut back our grocery list cause Mikes medicine co pay is 75 dollars a month or he would cut his pills in half.

My world of what ifs started a couple months ago we all knew my mil was not feeling well but she just put it off as a virus that would pass in a couple days and would not go to the dr cause it was so expensive and she had NO health care zip none although her Dr is a kind and caring indivual and said not to worry about the money pay us when you get it. My mil did not like owing people. So she didnt go then she got really sick and still wouldnt go till my fil said you have to go and when she went it was to late the damage was already started.

I have to wonder what if she had gone to the dr or the er earlier would she still be here or was her time to go I dont know. I wish I had a bigger following here I want everyone to be involved write to your local senator, congressman or congresswoman let them know about this issue its to important to leave to other people.

And when you say its not an important issue to your family leave a comment and I will share with you our story of camping out at the hospital the kids loosing a grammy they loved and adored or Me loosing a mil that I loved and adored or her husband who mourns for her or her sons that cant understand how this happened to her so fast.I pray everyday that no one looses a family member cause they didnt have health insurance. I pray everyday that I will leave the world of what ifs ( I am working on this).

And could someone please tell Mr Lim*baugh to shut his big fat mouth Bill O*reilly also.

Thank you for listening to me.